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Not Myself Today

by Turnpike Gates

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1.
Shifty Eyes 02:32
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Just how long have I been gone? It seems you need a friend and I’m in the wind again You gotta forgive me when I daydream I’m floating in between this world and one you’ve never seen I got shifty eyes and I’m prone to fantasize Another day, another new disguise I’m known to improvise when I’m trying to get high but I can’t control these shifty eyes I’m a castaway on the subway You’re making a new plea but once again I’m absentee To your dismay I’m on display My eyes, they won’t stay still When will you ever get your fill? I got shifty eyes and I’m prone to fantasize Another day, another new disguise I’m known to improvise when I’m trying to get high but I can’t control these shifty eyes
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Blackout 03:47
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She said, “hey, I need a vacation and a radio station that doesn’t play songs I know” She said, “hey, I been watching you lately and I can’t say I’m crazy about the way that you’re trending down” She said, “I been pretending there’s a happy ending but I can’t lie to myself no more I’m all maxed out My sanity is in doubt and I just found you lying on the floor” I said, “you sure that you’ve seen me lately? These streets make me crazy and I can’t walk them alone” I said, “my heart’s beating but fading like a radio station that only comes in at home” Now the ball’s in your court Blackout all of New York with the energy you shot my way And there’s no use trying I know I’m never finding another woman quite like you She said, “I been pretending there’s a happy ending but I can’t lie to myself no more I’m all maxed out My sanity is in doubt and I just found you lying on the floor” Now the ball’s in your court Blackout all of New York with the energy you shot my way And there’s no use trying I know I’m never finding another woman quite like you
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Summer Friend 03:15
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I hope you liked your little stay You tourist, you talk a real big game Vacation’s coming to an end Summer’s over, goodbye my summer friend I hope that you’ve been entertained Do you see the perfect mess you’ve made? Pack up now, don’t forget to write And tell your friends how you saw all the sights We’re almost back where we started before your train pulled in This town can’t take much more heartache so please don’t visit us again I know this ain’t the only town you visit and spread mayhem around It’s all fun ‘til summer’s in rearview and we’re left cleaning up after you We’re almost back where we started before your bus pulled in This town can’t take much more heartache so please don’t visit us again The taillights that fill up the fall night tell me that winter’s coming soon The Parkway is lit by their dim rays and light from your favorite moon It’s not your fault the boardwalk is closed until spring is a bloom So maybe come again, my summer friend
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Save Your Regards 04:40
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Been so clear since last year that we must find something that we hold dear Got lost near the state line where New Jersey turns into a waking nightmare Had a plan but the man He stopped it before it ever began But now we can all see what we must do to maintain some autonomy Save your regards because I’m going hard I’m picking up where we left off, the dance hall will never be able to return to stable Back and forth South to north East and west, it doesn’t matter when the map’s torn Caught headwinds Checked engine It was still alive, just stalled from inattention Got a jump Kicked a slump Promised to each other we would never succumb to the ring We’ll keep fighting God can save the queen but I ain’t got no time for the king Save your regards because I’m going hard I’m picking up where we left off, the dance hall will never be able to return to stable We’ll break down the walls with electric guitars I’m gonna start off right here where we left off This G chord’s a reward for making my heart soar
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Not Myself Today 02:30
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Wake up Who you gonna be? Who you gonna see on your way to wake up the demons deep asleep The ones you dare to keep caked in makeup Makeup Wake up I’m not myself today My battle-beaten brain keeps me from knowing what to say I’m not myself today My mighty manic mouth makes people run and hide away Lay back Dream your little dream Scheme your little scheme to find a way to pay back the ghosts who hang around, who boast and brag and hound you to sleep And take back all the things you said, should’ve never left your head so you just playback Playback Stay back I’m not myself today My battle-beaten brain keeps me from knowing what to say I’m not myself today My mighty manic mouth makes people run and hide away
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Straphanging 03:27
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I see that you’re doing discovery Crawling around on the ceiling above me I think this might stall my recovery but I can’t help that this city, she loves me This city, she loves me I been straphanging now for most of my life Why would you think I’m changing soon? Your bus looks funny under these cold Broadway lights But it’s still my favorite view I see that you’re trying to bait me Asking which bus I’ve been riding lately I can’t control how long it takes me And I can’t help that this city, she hates me This city, she hates me I been straphanging now for most of my life Why would you think I’m changing soon? Your bus looks funny under these cold Broadway lights But it’s still my favorite view I’ll ride this bus ‘til I can find a home ‘Til then, I won’t be alone but I’m losing friends at every stop And when the traffic slows down to a crawl I won’t fret at all I’ve learned this is the only route for me and thankfully I’ve got no other place to be I been straphanging now for most of my life Why would you think I’m changing soon? Your bus looks funny under these cold Broadway lights But it’s still my favorite view
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Allergic 03:02
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Do you remember when we could barely pay the rent? If it wasn’t for your temper, I would’ve drank up every cent We were spinning and I begged it to stop but when the world slowed down, I got got and found out that I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed The New Jersey weather, it always feels so in between A state of indecision, just when we’re warming up we freeze When it’s raining I beg it to stop but when the world dries out, I feel like I must cop that I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed It’s pouring down the shore and from Hazlet to Bayonne The rain drops on the black top make me wanna roam If I wander out too far, promise you will guide me home I can’t get right I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed
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High Hopes 03:14
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Do you remember when we could barely pay the rent? If it wasn’t for your temper, I would’ve drank up every cent We were spinning and I begged it to stop but when the world slowed down, I got got and found out that I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed The New Jersey weather, it always feels so in between A state of indecision, just when we’re warming up we freeze When it’s raining I beg it to stop but when the world dries out, I feel like I must cop that I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed It’s pouring down the shore and from Hazlet to Bayonne The rain drops on the black top make me wanna roam If I wander out too far, promise you will guide me home I can’t get right I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed I’m allergic to the remedy it seems ‘cause the reaction makes me bleed

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Not Myself Today, the first full-length Turnpike Gates album, is a collection of eight songs that chronicle the psychologically draining experience of living in a post-pandemic American city.

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released March 1, 2024

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Turnpike Gates is an alt-punk rock band founded by Philadelphia-bred / Jersey City-based singer-songwriter Ryan Smith.

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